Monday, December 15, 2008

I thought I was ready!

Well..I registered on a matrimonial site after much goading from my family.After my breakup with M(for moron!) I thought I was so ready and had gotten over him..but apparently I am stuck in the same revolving door and I keep coming back to the same point!warning signs flashing b'coz M is married now!ya got married to a total stranger few days ago..gave into his parents demands in the end and trampled all over my heart like a bulldozer!The worst part is I know he still loves me(duh!)he told me the day he was leaving the country forever(duh again!).
This situation reminds me of the lyric of the song"save the best for last" by Vanessa Williams where she says " how could you give your love to someone else and share your dreams with me"how can he?? I have no answer! Guess its my own fault for having built all these dreams in my head imagining me and him being together!ya my fault for loving and giving my 100%!The very idea of spending my life with somebody else bothers me to the point of cringing and I wonder how long it will be before I accept the situation at hand and move on!well my inner thoughts are screaming in answer"the sooner the better"!sigh..